Now What Did We Learn?

As I sit here on the eve of my birthday, I can't help but to reflect.

I'm not gone yieeee, 28 was a great year for me. I feel like this year really gave me the space to grow & flourish in all the lessons the previous year taught me. It tested me to see if I really learned from my pain or if I would make the same mistakes again. And I'ma just say....things go A LOT smoother when you actually learn from your mistakes.

"The rose that grew from concrete" was always a beautiful idiom to me, but now I feel like I can fully embrace the message. No matter what life has thrown at me I've managed to grow through it. They say pain is the best teacher, & I can honestly say boy yall ain never lied. But with pain, comes happiness. You can't truly appreciate the good days if you've never experienced the bad. It creates balance.

I'm still figuring out life everyday, but I think I've lived enough to realize that your life gets better when your outlook on things change. Instead of getting frustrated & shutting down when things are going wrong I now ask myself "what is this teaching me? What am I learning from this?". Asking myself these simple questions have helped me majorly. You can't always play the vitim in life. A lot of shit that happens to us really be self inflicted, but if you aren't aware of self you'll never realize that. Sometimes you really have to pause, take a step back, & look at the full picture. There's so many lessons to be learned, so many opportunities for growth. The opportunity to constantly evolve into a better self.

I could sit here all day & ramble about life, growth, opportunites, or whatever, but I won't. As my year 28 comes to an end I sit here & ask myself....Now what did we learn? And my honest answer is: There's beauty in rebuilding. It's okay to start over. It's okay to rebuild. You can't ask for a new life and still have the habits & ties of the old. Growth isn't always linear. You aren't going to always be up, but I know one thing for damn sure, you aren't always going to be down either. Take the good with the bad. Enjoy things for what they are. Embrace the people around you. I could not survive with just me alone. My support system is the most amazing group of people & I appreciate God putting them in my life every day. I'm thankful for the lessons & I'm thankful for the pain. I'm exicted to see what this next year holds for me.

Cheers 🥂 to year 28.

Year 29, please be good to me.