Fuck Em, We Ball.
- Mauni Couture
- Feb 4, 2024
- 1 min read
Are we in a retrograde??? Because life has felt extremely chaotic lately. January always last 3 months, but I swear this January had crack in it. I feel like life lately has been a reoccurring test that I just can't seem to pass. I often find myself overthinking, underestimating, & all around just not being sure. I've always been a girl with a plan, but 2023 threw me so many curves that I had to learn how to just wing it. But now that I'm just winging it, I feel even more lost than before.
I often find myself wanting to be vulnerable with people. I want to tell those closest to me the inner workings of my mind, but I just can't seem to do it. That voice in my head screams to me "You better not. Be vulnerable??? Girl are you crazy??" Maybe I am? Am I? Crazy for wanting to be a person without emotional boundaries? For wanting to be the person I was wired to be before life's bs happened? Often times we are our own enemy. We talk ourselves out of so much shit that could be so beautiful. Maybe the correct answer to this test that I keep failing is to let go. Step outside of my comfort zone. Be crazy. Be vulnerable. Speak what's really on my mind & heart. Be the person I was created to be before the trauma. The social construct is not the standard.
Fuck em, we ball.
Don't be scared to allow yourself to show vulnerability. Let your inner circle be your support system, let them see you at your low, and allow them to pick you up. There is some strength and beauty in allowing yourself to show emotions and knowing that it's ok not to be ok.